What We Should Be Doing
Seven months ago my beautiful boy left this earth and my world is forever changed. It has been 7 long months since I've seen his smile and heard his laughter or felt his arm hooked inside mine. If you would have told me a year ago that I would lose a child and I'd still be standing here, living my life, going to work, taking care of my family, seeing friends, I would have said no way. In fact, the day he died, I wailed in disbelief and said "I want to die." How could I go on living without my son? But I'm still here. I continue to find beauty and joy in this life although my heart is completely shattered. I continue to make plans for the future with my remaining family, although there's a huge gaping hole where my son once was. So many people say to me "thinking of you during the holidays" and "the holidays are going to be so difficult for you all." And I have to say- the holidays are not difficult. I mean, every day is difficult. Ever...